Transitions
Photograph of Jamie shared with permission.
by Guest Contributor, Jamie Ni: Founder of Sonouros, Connection Guide
While I sit here writing this, I am shifting. My energy, my being, the form and structure that I have poured myself into, is no longer supportive. It terrifies me to write that.
Let me back it all up for a couple of sentences. We’re firmly in Autumn, a season marked by cooling temperatures, a slowing down, a yielding of sorts. And being a Metal Horse, my whole being was LOUDLY sighing in relief as the intensity of Summer yang slid over into the softer introduction into the yin of Autumn. Normally this is my most productive season, my most comfortable season, the time, space and season where I feel at home.
There is nothing more relieving than the winds sweeping, whispering through the trees as we roll down the hill of the year. Nothing more satisfying than biting into a crisp apple, collecting big heavy pumpkins, finding all of the abundance of the summer and harvesting all of the potential that has finally attained physical form.
And yet, I am formless. Not for the first time, I am wondering to myself, who am I without all of the roles that I play, all of the ways that I help, that I support others in my orbit? If I take away the affirmation of another telling me that I am good at something, or that I can help them, or that I could support them. What am I? Who am I? What shape do I occupy when no one needs me?
In Chinese Medicine, Autumn is the season of letting go, of grief, of experiencing the leaves of life turning color and deeply appreciating the change without wanting to control it. It scares me to experience Autumn in this way this year, without structure, without knowing where my next steps will be or what goal I am working towards.
Removing myself from my former context has me feeling unmoored, untethered and completely out of place. Reminding myself that this is a type of grief we rarely allow ourselves to experience. It’s the knowing that who we are in this exact moment in time, this being is already gone, when we’re truly present we’re already losing the knowing of who we are.
We are dissolving into the present moment and giving ourselves the chance to be fully with ourselves.
The many journeys that we will take, will at some point have us moving through the deep well of loss, of not knowing what comes next. Before the night comes, we get to experience the beauty of the sunset, of feeling the evening set in. Let us not worry about the darkness but find the beauty in each moment as the light shifts.
Photograph of Jamie shared with permission.
Jamie is an explorer, an intuitive and a connection guide who invites human beings to experience the world around us. Through our senses and all the extrasensory information we receive from the beings around us, she believes in the magic of connection, of cultivating relationships, of the delight in the warmth found in the gaze of another.
Rooted in a lifelong practice of animism, she finds herself invited to create Sonouros, “a space to find ourselves and to go within when the world is clamoring for us to seek our answers outside of ourselves. It is a time and place where we put ourselves first by creating aligned rituals and choose practices that help us find ourselves." As Sonouros changes and evolves, she is inviting in each of the elements to guide her in transition.
Allowing herself to be held by the wisdom of her ancestors, and the 5 elements, she hopes you will join her on a journey of discovery, of deepening relationship, of being-ness that extends us past a one-dimensional existence.
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